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I don’t know what keeps me going back to him. I can’t tell if it’s the good or the bad, the function or the dysfunction, the healthy vs. unhealthy attractions, connections, etc. Each time I think I have my head wrapped around it, each time I think I reached a…


I’m not up here to tell a story. I am up here because my uncle deserves to be remembered for his kind soul.

If you stare long enough at a tombstone, it becomes clear that all that remains of a person is their soul, their spirit. That’s the only thing…


Three days would make me feel human again. Three days in a new scene. Three days when nobody I’d meet ever heard of me. Three days when my baggage couldn’t hunt me down. Three days of freedom, new air, freshness, circulating, new experience.

I felt like I could breathe; I…


I can’t sleep so I might as well write. I’m hours away from the final day of this three-week journey. I just read over the first entry and I came to the conclusion that I followed pretty much everything except the no contact rule I made towards my child’s father…


Only four more days including today. It feels like forever and yet no time at all. Physically, I feel great. It’s amazing what less than three weeks of good eating and lack of alcohol do to the body. I am liking the shape I have in the mirror. The true…


I just finished watching The Affair. Talk about a show that will rip your guts out. Not to mention it’s set in my favorite place on earth. That’s right. Montauk, NY.

I knew there was something spiritual about the place when I drove there shortly after my thirtieth birthday. I…


I made a huge mistake yesterday. This is me writing over a second time what happened because this stupid fucking platform doesn’t have an “undo” button and this is the second time I erased all of my text by accident. So not only am I broken, literally using this writing…


The last blog was a doozy. I find myself still reading and adding to it days later. I haven’t shared it with anyone yet because I’m waiting for it to feel complete. I’ll read it over again tomorrow.

Things are going well leading up to this final week of the…


Day 10 means halfway through. It went by both slowly and quickly, just like everything else. I do feel better when I look in the mirror. I have a ways to go, but the feeling I get from looking at my body (which seems tighter) is encouraging. I’m proud of…


Today was cheat day. I built in a cheat day to this 21-day-program for my trip to Montauk. Since I didn’t go to Montauk, I used it today. Man did I need it. …

Jess

I need Jesus.

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